I Packed…I Think?

It’s 3pm on Sunday, July 28, 2019. My flight is at 4pm tomorrow. I packed my bags and they’re sitting open in my walk in closet…

I should feel like I’m ready to go, but I’m not. This is my very first marathon swim so I’m not even sure if what I packed is enough? Did I pack the right things? Do I really need that long blue casual dress in case I go to dinner one night? (*2 mins later takes out dress) NO! Why would I be going to dinner? I’m supposed to transition my days and be resting! (*10 mins later) WAIT – “transition my days” means I need to stay up later at night so I should definitely find a place for dinner! (*puts dress back in bag) I did this with everything I was trying to pack and then it dawned on me:

I wrote myself a detailed list of exactly what I should pack, so I referred back to the list I’ve been creating and recreating for months and took out the unnecessaries and put back in what was on the list. But, here’s the thing, now I’m second guessing the list. But ya know what? WHO CARES!? I’m being so hard on myself. I need to lighten up.

Let’s be real: I’m going to get there and things are going to change. Nothing is going to go as planned and I’m going to have to figure it out one step at a time. So what if I don’t pack enough hoodies…I’ll probably buy one that says “Lake Tahoe” on it anyways. At the end of the day all I need is one suit, one cap and a pair of goggles (maybe a water bottle too).

So, I’m packed…I think?